Life is passing by so quickly, and my children are disappearing before my eyes...they're turning into adults. In one way, I wish I could freeze them right where they are, in another I wish I could take them back to an earlier age. I am enjoying their growth and who they are becoming, I'm just not liking the change that is coming so quickly. My oldest is 21, I was married by her age. I'm glad she is not. Having her home from college is wonderful...at times. I rarely see her, but I love it when I do...its just that there is always some sort of conflict over how I run the house and how she thinks it could work better. I hope I get to see the day, she runs into the same issues with her children. The next oldest is in Marine boot camp right now, I received his first letter home this week! I miss him. He's not a man of many words, so reading his letter was like getting a shot of him for a year, all at once, I liked that. Then there is my 17 year old, whom I love, but can grate on my nerves with his attitude most days. He is now employed and working 30 hours a week, this is good for all of us. My 13 year old and 9 year old are the last of my babies...that's hard for me to believe. I was pregnant for what felt like forever, and now I'm here looking back. I'm not sure I like it here. I've worked hard to get them to the edge of the nest, so I can nudge them out, and watch them soar. Two are flying.....the other is just ready to jump. How did I get here? When did I get here? Its all so hard to believe, yet I've been preparing for this a long time. I have few regrets and even those have, I've given over to the Lord. I am a proud momma, who is standing in this strange chasm in time.
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